u/0800-vakker

I'm struggling a lot with what I feel like are somatic symptoms. I always felt something bad happened to me when I was a toddler. I'm 25 now. I went through adult assaults too. I know I need therapy. Thing is, I asked my mother if my father could've done something to me when I was young, she said she doesn't remember/know when it could've happened, but she admitted that knowing him the possibility exists. I've been stuck, because what do you mean this man was so depraved that you imagine him being able to hurt his own daughter? One thing is domestic violence between adults, but this? I don't know how to deal with it. I wish she could've told me that it was impossible, that he'd never do that