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trying to determine what my hesitancy to engage in casual flings might stem from.

I have contamination OCD so I'm taking all of the recommended vaccines for gay men and starting Doxypep. I'm hoping that helps me loosen up a bit because I get skeeved out even thinking about kissing people that I don't already know (unless they are super hot).

I have a desire to be more sexually open but feel like I'm going to feel used and disgusting after, especially if I don't know and trust the person.

I'm fine just engaging in side activities (because anal seems a bit too intimate with someone I'm not in a relationship with) but have to be really horny to even consider going on Grindr to meet someone to mess around with. That makes me feel like I'm gonna have some serious post-nut ick and feel gross after.

I've had one such hookup before and it took me a while (like weeks) to get over the encounter and it was with someone that I knew.

I would like to try to have a fun/slutty summer but it seems like I have a big hurdle to get over before I can enjoy myself. Any tips/advice would be much appreciated!

I'm thinking about attending but I've never done anything like this before and am wondering if there's anything I should know before I do from people who are more experienced attendees.

Am I expected to participate or can I just watch if I'm not super comfortable?

What are the demographics like? (age, race, hotness)

Do people tend to use it as an opportunity to find FWB or potentially more?

Also, should I start PrEP or something beforehand?

are there any gay specific bathhouses or steam rooms in the city? I'm trying to get into more whorish activities this summer and I'm trying to figure out good places to do so.

I'm new to clubbing at gay bars and I'm trying to learn how to best navigate these spaces. I'm trying to learn from watching how other people approach these areas but things aren't always very clear so I'm trying to get some clarity here.

How do I know when it is okay to/when I can initiate making out, throwing it back on someone, and feeling someone up? And how do I signal that I'm open to being manhandled/felt up?

Also, is it safe to assume that all the guys there are gay/bi? I have a bit of anxiety about trying to interact with a guy and getting turned away because he's there with his gay friend or girlfriend.

I'm in NYC and trying to have a hot boy summer!