Ang story ko is napipilitan ako bumalik sa nursing kahit na I already shifted to my dream course (Multimedia arts) due to financial reasons and for the love of God I can NOT find any motivation to do well sa course na yan kahit na noon lagi akong top notcher/deans lister sa lahat. Was a 2nd year student when I shifted courses tapos ngayon babalik ulit ako sa 2nd year this year if ever man.
Now, I try to look at the bright side of it all na parang "Oooh may magiging nurse na sa family" or "ikakaproud ng mama mo yan pag ikaw naging registered nurse". Sure sure, yeah, do it for the fam pero really, whenever I look back sa course na yan it just makes me so miserable. Nakatakas na nga ako sa course na yan and went to chase my dreams tapos ngayon kailangan ko bumalik sa nursing ulit for pretty much financial reasons (puros private universities ako tas ngayon sa state university ako lilipat) and just thinking about it makes me wanna die. I hate the concept of studying and learning so much material, sacrificing my physical and mental health, going through all these exams and boards, just to end up in a minimum wage in (from what Ive mostly heard here online) a toxic environment. Ewan ko ba parang d sya worth it talaga when you think about it.
I have the option of going back to the course I would much prefer pero it would be at the cost of my parent's money e ngaun we're kinda struggling. I felt guilty talaga kaya I took it upon myself to go to state university and mag aral nalang ng nursing para free tuition kahit papaano at least. Its not that I dont have a choice at all, pinapayagan parin nila ako ituloy ang MMA, its just that I feel like para sa kapakanan ng pamilya ko I feel like I have no better option but to go to state uni+nursing. Im basically sacrificing my dreams and happiness dahil sa tingin ko mas beneficial sa pamilya ko un.
Ung ginagawa ko nalang for the past few days is to try and cope and look at whatever bright side there is to nursing pero wala e it feels like Im going back to hell nanaman. The endless studying, sleepless nights, memorizing and practicing retdems, ung masesermonan ka ng mga clinical instructors... wala talaga akong maisip na magandang experience sa nursing even tho I did very well nung 1st year ko. And I know, nursing is not for the weak, mahirap mahalin ang course na ayaw mo, pero with the situation Im in wala feel ko kelangan ko bumalik ulit.
Im out of ideas para maenjoy ko man lang sana ang nursing aside from having the title of being a Registered Nurse in the future kaya baka naman may pwede kayo maishare na mga pros of being in the medical field? How do you guys enjoy being a nurse as a job? Is it truly worth it? Or u could tell me otherwise, mas advice nyo ba na ipursue parin ang passion over practicality? Thank you po!