through out my time in school i never really had many friends. like 1 or 2 at a time, and a lot of them ended up being not so great people. tomorrow is my last day of high school. i wont be able to be somewhere around that many people my age that i could try to be friends with. im a very socially anxious and awkard person so i struggle a lot with this but im trying to spend less time sitting in my bed and scrolling through my phone.
im trying everything i can think of. i joined a roller derby team, which is full of amazing people, but it isnt really the type of friendship to hang out outside of team activities. i downloaded bumble bff last week and ive had no luck. and the apps not that great. it doesnt give you many options then you have to wait forever for more to show up.
im also in the dilemma of im broke, jobless, and my car doesnt work. my car has been stuck in the driveway for about a year because of one stupid, really persistent issue we cant fix at home. i dont have the money for professional repair or buying a new car. i quit my job as a server a few months ago due to really unfair treatment from the owner and none of the places ive applied to since then have contacted me back. ive gone through all the money i had in savings just so im not fully relying on my parents.
how do i find people near me that have similar interests? i want to be able to have people to hang out with and go do fun things with. i just dont know how to meet those people. i go to concerts and events and i try to start conversations with people but it never really seems like any of them want to talk. i guess something about the way i look just gives of the "ive been bullied all my life" look and that kinda scares people off