(21f) I’ve had a one off thing with a good amount of men and a few of them really wanted me to cum during the deed, something in me never let me cum. I think it could be that im embarrassed that ive never came before and i dont want to do it in front of someone i don't really know that well.
I even got a toy to play with and hopefully be able to do it on my own but I still couldn’t get myself to do it. The most I felt was a sharp chill/tingle down my spine but i quickly just lost that feeling as well.
And in general I am not sure everything down there is alright either as I got fingered by a man last night and I just started bleeding? I thought I was honestly wet. My sex life history embarrasses me and I do not know how to approach this situation.