I love this man so much and I never was the controlling or nosy type. After one year of a more or less dead beadroom I snooped in his laptop and found... more I could ever make up.
He still got an active profile on the website we met (which he denied before), he watches porn pretty much every night I go to bed before him and worst of all there is the "ex folder". Which he has opened a few days ago - immediately after the gooner browser history continues. So his ex, who cheated on him cruelly is his fapping material and I'm just here to ignore physically.
I am devastated. I thought it was just a rough patch. Depression and low libido on his part. I was so understanding and really tried to hold my frustration in to not bring pressure in our bedroom.
Turns out I'm just a joke. And I don't even have the metaphorical balls to confront him about it.