Things I Never Said
Dear You,
Idk what's got into me at napasulat ako ulit ng letter para sayo. I don't know what to write anymore. I used to write you many letters before. I know I just want to let you know, I'm doing well Tink. I hope you are too. I wish you're not stressing out life and living life freely like you used to when I'm out of the picture before and after we had a relationship.
Yes, you still cross my mind but not frequently like it used to. Unlike last year I was about to ride a MC Taxi to your house but at the last minute I changed my mind. I don't want to come to your doors unannounced. For what? To disturb your peace and quiet life? I would like to spare you that like you did to me as well. Thank you for still replying to my unnecessary text. I think about sending those messages 3 to 4 times. To see if you would still respond. At times you would if really needed but at times I keep my expectations really low that time. You know me. When I expect a lot, I will just be disappointed at the outcome later on.
I was disappointed in myself. For not telling you the truth. For easily forgetting you and spending my life with another person. I just want to be happy. I was happy with you but in the long run that happiness turned to sadness, longing, yearning and overthinking why is it the warmth of your love turned colder each day?
I found the answer in your silence. In all the cancelled meetups. In the way you block every open way of communication. I wish you gave it a second chance while my heart is still searching for you. I don't know if you received that message in your old sim i gave. But yes.
You still have a piece in my memory and I'm still quietly cheering for you and your dreams in life. Thank you for the memories Tink. For being the first green flag I ever loved.
Stay safe and wish you all the best.
Sincerely,
Me 🌙