u/-killme_

Hello,

I apologize for this probably being a repetitive post on this subreddit. But I really need help.

I have had severe health anxiety my entire life. Recently, due to poor mental health, I have suffered 3 major panic attacks. These have been accompanied with high bpm (around 120 for 1-2 hours), and chest pain. This has caused me to now be constantly mentally aware of my heartrate for literal weeks. I cannot seem to ignore it no matter how hard I try. And if I can't feel it just beating in my chest, I'm checking my pulse.

Because of this anxiety, I keep getting into these deep spirals where I'm convinced my heart rate is high, which then causes it to actually get high (100-120bpm), which causes me to panic more and it creates this awful cycle that I'm sure some of you know all too well.

This is really new to me and is making my life a living hell. I want to be able to enjoy myself without obsessing over how fast my heart is beating. Especially because I know that this anxiety could ACTUALLY cause me to have real heart problems in the future.

Please help me out. Does anyone have any tips on how to ignore my heart, pull myself out of these spirals, or relive this anxiety about heart attacks? I'm desperate and tired. Thank you!

Hello,

I, 19F, have struggled with poor mental health since I was a child. I have been in therapy for around 6 years now. I am diagnosed with ADHD, multiple anxiety disorders, anorexia, and depression as a side-effect.

I am so tired of dealing with mental illness. It has been 19 years and nothing has gotten better. In fact, it's only gotten worse, as my eating disorder is a pretty recent thing. I try so hard in therapy. I try their coping methods, I try to change my mindset, I go outside, I do all of it. I have been on medication after medication and nothing has helped.

On top of that, the past few months I've had this weird lingering feeling that nothing matters. My interests, hobbies, new activities I've tried, and even hanging out with friends all feels boring or pointless. Every day I wake up, go through the motions, and count down the hours until I can sleep again. Life barely feels real.

I don't know how to fix this. I don't want to waste the one life I have, but everything just feels so meaningless. I sit in my room and do nothing most days because when everything is a blur, what else am I supposed to do?

I just want to be happy.

If anyone else has ever felt this way and fixed it, please share some advice. I'm running out of hope.