Howdy friends, bit of background context, quit last year for 4 months and got so much done. Made so many memories, gained a bunch of weight. Overall, I felt amazing. I started smoking again and ended up in an 8 month relapse. Fast forward to April 13th 2026, I decided enough was enough.
Ive been smoking since I was 18, im almost 32 now. I used to have a bunch of friends that smoked but over time they all fell away or stopped smoking themselves. Over the last 5 years or so, smoking turned into MY thing. Like complete isolation, declining on all plans to hide myself away, eat a bunch of food and doom scroll.
My current situation is kinda tough. I'm starting a new job next week, which is a new business, so feels a bit insecure. My grandpa in a different country is also dying. It sounds harsh but he is 81 years old and was diagnosed with multiple system atrophy a year ago so its not looking good.
Times are hard but it feels like now more than ever would be the worst time to smoke. Every night I have horrible nightmares of doing things I dont want to do or some kind of violence/negelect themed dream. It sucks. Do any long long term quitters have any foresight on when this disapates? Id imagine it is because life is so stressful right now on top of quitting.
I'm almost at a month now and its been super hard at times but over all I feel this sense of not wanting to run to weed, for the first time in my life. It does feel different than my first quit. Like my brain and nervous system are screaming at me to smoke but my heart and lungs are telling them to stfu before I actually do anything.
I'd love some input of others experiences, I just want to know that things will improve and I wont have these constant headaches and stress dreams forever.
If you're starting out on a quit and finding it tough, keep going, its not all wins and rainbows but how will you know whats on the other side of the bridge if you turn back halfway.
Tysm for reading.