Would any of you be kind enough to share with me your tips and tricks of calming a dysregulated nervous system after taking years and years of abusive behaviour? I cannot afford a therapist, I need self help methods and resources please.
I'm still having to live with my parents as an adult now I've finished university, and while the worst of it is definitely over, they're still explosively angry, illogical, highly judgemental and erratically emotional people. -enough to grind anyone down. I've had to quit my job to move far away to an area I have no connections with with them as I couldn't afford to rent on my own and now I'm just stuck with them every day again and am feeling my stress and anxiety go through the roof again. feel like i'm locked in 'their world' at the moment and it's slightly maddening.
I believe the way my mum treated me as a kid has been the main contributing factor to the fact I still to this day have low mood, panic attacks, low self esteem, clench my jaw to the point of inducing TMJ disorder and a partial dislocation of my jawbone, terrible posture and chronic muscle pains, suicidal thoughts and a general failure to launch.
I need to find something cheaper than talk therapy or some sort of resource or guide to soothe myself and become more productive and less affected in the face of this. I feel like a slave to their emotions being around my parents.