Thought coworker is becoming a friend
It happened again. Thought that coworker could be a friend, talked a lot, texted outside of work.
I've often times talked about maybe meeting up outside of work and she seemed to agree but never had time. Yeah okay, it's stressful and whatever. Happens.
We've talked about meeting up to take pictures of her dog as well. I initiated that and we've just yesterday talked about it again but she doesn't have time. Yeah fun.
Turns out, she just didn't have time to meet up with me. Met up with another coworker two times this week. First time with the dogs, which fine. I understand that but not today. Posted on Insta (which made me sad). So she does have time to meet people, just not me. How surprising.
At least she often takes her dog to the office and I can cuddle her or take her out for a short walk if I need a break but... Yeah idk. I offered that she can ask me to take her out if she doesn't have time (more outside facing job, I'm just back office so I pretty much always have time for that) and she does that but still seems to feel bad about taking advantage (and she doesn't, I love doing that). I don't know.
Yeah I'm intense but? Idk what to do. I like doing things for people and maybe that's too much?? Like, I live alone and cook too much quite often so I've sometimes made lunch for her too and she always was grateful but now idk. I just really don't know what to feel.
Why does that always happen?? Not like it's the first time and every time I again really believe it's different this time...
And maybe it is? Maybe my anxiety (?? Doesn't really work but idk what the right word would be) just imagine things but also bad experiences so... Yeah. I know I'm not the only person or whatever but her always telling me she doesn't have time and then that, yeah. Feels bad (also we talked about that for a few months now, back when we had the same job. So it's not really recently)