I’ve been doing a lot of research into agender and saw that most people describe it as a “lack of gender”. This made me question myself. For me, it feels like my gender is nothing/neither male nor female. I don’t technically lack a feeling of gender, it feels like my gender is literally “nothing” or “incomprehensible”. Does that make sense? Is this a form of agender or is this something else?
I’m currently in what I think is an abusive household. I grew up being abused by my dad and now live with my mom and her boyfriend and honestly can’t tell if I’m being abused or not. Either way, the way I’m being treated has been very hard on my mental health. I need/want to get out so bad but unfortunately I’m not a minor so CPS wouldn’t be any help. I also have no car/no license and no job. I want to get a job, but would have no way of transportation. Also learning to drive is very difficult for me and would take a while also because of other factors. I don’t know what to do. I feel so stuck. Any advice would be appreciated.