I’m in this weird spot where I do not plan on coming out anytime soon or at least for a year or two, but what are some gender affirming things I can secretly/discreetly do in the meantime for myself.
I’m open to any suggestions and thank you!
I am about a month out of a relationship with a woman and have known I was bisexual for the past few years so naturally, I decided to try having sex with a man for the first time. Met the Dude online everything went well. I’m very early into my transition so I still look like a man albeit chubbier in the places women store fat. I laid out everything I wanted to do with him, he agreed and came over and we had sex.
In the moment while I was horny, the sex was great. I didn’t have the best orgasm, but I still came and he left to go home after we got all cleaned up. Initially I ignored all the usual post nut clarity thoughts and was thinking to myself that they’ll go away and now about 20 minutes later, all I can think is ew that was nasty, I’m never doing that again with a man. I’ve already rinsed my mouth out 3 times with mouthwash out of disgust.
I absolutely loved being fucked, but now I realize I don’t like being fucked by a man. I’m just sort of sitting here wishing I had found a fellow trans woman or even a woman with a pegging fetish instead. 2 side notes, 1 having a man cum in my ass was hella disappointing I didn’t even feel it happen and 2 women were definitely right 5 inches was more than enough.
Could also be that I just prefer femme presenting people but I’ll figure that out at a different time. Anyways, that’s all I just wanted to kind of talk about my experience with this community and maybe see if y’all have had similar experiences.