Later Realizations
It really sucks that after the breakup you are able to look back objectively and see things like all the key decisions you made, or didn’t make. Or in all the self reflection post break up even realizing more flaws that you didn’t realize during the relationship.
I’ve always seen people use the term “avoidant” and just assumed it was people actively running away from relationships or confrontation in a relationship, but researching and realizing that I’m an avoidant has been a pretty awful feeling. I think I always felt like this was a normal way to be because that’s how I was raised, without much affection. I spent most of my life growing up never being good enough, and I knew that effected me as a person in different aspects of my life, but didn’t know it pushed me towards this avoidant personality. I feel like shit