r/u_bunnyspom

Background context: me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost two years now. When I first met him he had a bike, after two weeks of talking he got into a bike accident. He broke his tibia and he had a rough time in the hospital he was there for about two/three months due to his body rejecting the new skin and muscle that it was attached there. The doctors even told him that there was a chance of him losing his leg. The healing process was hard too, not being able to walk and being stuck in a bed for months it really affected him he had to be on a wheelchair and eventually in crunches. After that his leg hasn’t look the same, he lost completely sense of touch in that area, he can’t be walking around without a compression sock and ankle brace because then his foot starts to hurt. In cold season he also struggles with pain. During his whole journey I tried to be supportive. I stuck around because he was/is a great guy and even though I barely knew him when the accident happened, it hurt a lot seeing him in such a depressing state. I knew that his life wasn’t going to be the same and I thought I wouldn’t have to worry about him wanting to get another bike let’s not forget about the fact that he promised me and told me multiple times that he wasn’t planning on getting another bike but okay. Fast forward a couple weeks ago he started talking about bikes and how he misses the feeling of being on a bike and now I see that he’s serious about getting another bike. I can’t understand the feeling he talks me about because I have never rode a bike and I’m really trying to understand and be supportive on his hobbies but if something were to happen to him I don’t know what I would do I might sound selfish but I don’t understand why he wants to go back to something that can kill him anytime and even though he tried to reassure me that he is not the same reckless driver and would treat it as a side hobby I can’t be at peace because there’s also another bad drivers and accidents can happen. I’m aware that I can’t force him to do what I want but what am I supposed to do.