I need help, I need advice, I need a blooming miracle!
I have young children, one with ASD and another with ADHD and it’s a LOT. I’m a sole parent - 365 days a year with one person in my support network for help. Their father has no contact and chose to move countries, somewhere where CMS cannot enforce maintenance.
I work 30hrs a week, + a 4.5hr round trip commute once a week and I work with a trendy, young, pre-family Gen Z’s, clicky group chats team (toxic too, but that’s another day). My lifestyle and priorities could not be further apart from the team. I work 9-5.30pm, I often stop work for pick up, dinner, bedtime (which with my ADHD child can often take 2-3hrs a night) and then work 9-11/12pm.
I’m shattered, I’m exhausted, I’m so drained and so burnt out. I can’t continue how I am, I feel like at this rate I’ll end up seriously unwell (stress-related heart attack or a breakdown) and who will my precious children have then?
I’ve lost all love for the job and I know I can’t continue like this. But I also don’t know how I can continue to financially survive on a less intense, ergo lower paid job which might give me the ability to breathe, be more mentally present and less drained. I’m so unhappy I want to quit this week, but I know without anywhere to go this is a bad idea.
Any advice? Please…