r/u_Asleep-Chipmunk-9015

I'm a 43m, and I've been talking with a 63f for about four months now. From the day I met her, we communicate daily with each other. We stay on the phone for hours and we spend a lot of time together when I'm home from work. She will fight with me at times, telling me she's done, talking to me, and block me on her phone. She will call back the next day like nothing happened. Also, at times, she will think about me and buy me stuff. She will tell me she hates herself that she does that but still does it afterward. I recently told her I fell for her and that I had never felt this strong for a woman before. She told me that she doesn't have feelings for me and doesn't want anything to do with me. I just dont get it. We have an amazing time together, and we laugh on the phone with each other. Its like we cant stay away from each other. She knows I want her sexually and she will tease me at times. But then pull it all back. We'll recently i had a 45f who truly adores me that wants to get to know me and I would love to get to know her more but my feelings for the 63f are so strong that im hooked.