r/tooyoungtobethissick

Hey ya'll! I don't usually post on here, really, but I need some support right now. Im 30 years old, don't work, on disability, living with my mom and two sisters. I am sick with mental illnesses and some physical. I don't have any friends at all except my family. I'm struggling because I feel like my life isn't going anywhere. Im crying as I write this because it hurts. It hurts to see other 30 year olds flourishing in life, and im sick at home because of my fears from my mental illnesses. I suffer every day I wake up because what am I doing? I got a new hobby, record collecting. I love music, and that's what really keeps me here, is listening to music because it helps me escape my present moment and life. I suffer with the fear of even stepping outside on my own. This is so hard. I just want to know that I'm not alone because I go about this life as if it's just another day, and I just want to see a better life for myself. I've been through so much in my life, and I'm tired. I hurt because I can't even work, and that makes me feel low. I'm 30 and should be out here with a freaking career or something. Im just trying to survive with whatever time I have left in this life because it feels like I have nothing here fr. I don't have anything to show for my life, and that hurts so bad. Please, somebody, just be here with me, please.... because I deal with this all alone. I have a counselor and psychiatrist, but that only helps so much, you know? So if ya'll don't mind, just lmk im not alone in this because I hurt all by myself, and idk how to handle it. Thank you for listening. 🥹🥹