r/StraightsBeingOK

I had been best friends with him for 3 years, we've known each other for 5 years, 2 years as a friend, we've met on first year of college and we become close friends after I switched my section to his classes, we got to know better, I used to flirt with him as a joke and had thought of kissing him , I knew he was homophobic and hated it so I stopped but also he had a girlfriend he loved dearly and waiting to get married, they are still dating btw ,so he talked about her all the time, like any chance he gets, he expressed how much he love her and care about her so I realised at that moment, I shouldn't be evil and selfish and to stop inappropriate thoughts about him. I've told him about my past and experiences with girls before, but as time goes by I have changed a lot about myself and become closer to God , I wanted a real thing like he have , beautiful relationship and someone I want to love , he truly helped me like have been a good influence and made a good impact on me so on Saturday we were going to take our graduation photo and he was talking about, relationship and mentioned about sex and how to satisfy a women, he asked me from my experience I told him and also mentioned that the G-spot is the important thing, he searched it on Google and was looking at it on pics ,I told him the weird thing is also men have G-spot ,he was shocked and says where? I didn't reply but he thought for a second and said in our a*s 🍑, I replied yea , I saw someone talking about it online and told him that's how I knew, so we got talking, he wanted to know about the very first time I did it ,and it was 3 some ,me and my guy best friend at that time and her ,he asked if I kissed him ,I told him yes, I did that , and me and him used to practice how to kiss on each other, he felt a little uncomfortable on that information, after that he left to meet his girlfriend, it was lunchtime, after we took our photos, the photographer suggested we should pick 3 to put in the album so I picked mine and saw his picture, he seems good looking and neat on picture, I complimented him and say didn't realise you were this handsome, he became nonchalant about it but later that night suggested I should repented for my sins ,which I did and he feared I might make a move on him ,I told him I wouldn't and I would distant if the temptation comes ,and today as we were talking, he said I'm flirting with him ,I wasn't I was making jokes like I used to so now I understand this new information about me freaked him out and wanted to adjust, but I hope he realised it happened in the past and I'm currently in completely different place from where I was before.