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So I'm pretty much a new by on shrooms, I've had like 5 trips total, being the greatest dose I had about 1.5 gram up to the other day.

After a long time watching videos on YouTube about dosages, I decided to do a 2 grams trip, wich was sold to me as a low dose.

Anyway, I took the shrooms at about 10pm and almost immediately I started to feel like an intense feeling of low blood sugar or something, I thought I was going to pass out.

I started panicking because I thought the shrooms were laced with something and because my house was full of people that were about to leave, but the shrooms were kicking in and people weren't going away. They were talking to me, asking questions and I tried my best not to show I was freaking out.

By the time they left I was having full visuals and started to think that I was getting crazy and felt like I was about to die.

I told my wife what was happening and urged her to call my shrink, who didn't answer, and to call an ambulance, but she was on hold for like forever.

By this time I was having triple vision, almost getting crossed eye. My wife left to call my brother who lives really nearby, and I was alone for the first time, seeing all types of crazy patterns on the walls, seeing what felt like ancient symbols, feeling like there were wild animals nearby my house, like cougars and stuff. I started hearing noises, like knocking on my door, the door bell ringing (no one there).

I was fully aware that this noises were hallucinations, and was sure I was going crazy and I was about to die.

I managed to call a friend who is a doctor, my hands trembling, really hard to read anything on the phone. He said I just had to ride it out, wich made me even more scared.

My wife got back with my brother in what felt like half an hour, but it was like a couple of minutes.

Once they were there and we started talking, I was finally calming down and the rest of the trip was just the visuals.

An important thing to add is that I've had gastric bypass surgery, wich I think explains the rally fast come up.

What was getting me really scared was the build up. I thought that if with so little time I was already in that shape, it would get a lot worse. I was really afraid of having an ego death because I really wasn't ready for it.

I guess I would like to know if, from what I described, it was just a bad trip or also an ego death. I've read some stuff that an ego death can feel like you're dying and going crazy. What do you guys think?