r/PsilocybinMushrooms

I’m going kayaking with a few of my buddies and we’re all taking mushrooms I was wondering if anybody has done that and how was it I had 2.5 of penis envy

Where to begin…

I’m a 40M, fairly healthy physically. I go to the gym, box, and play football. I’ve got a wife and a young son, a loving family, a good job, and a solid life on paper.

Personality-wise, I’m quite addictive and obsessive. I’ve done my fair share of raving over the years and have had some proper multi-day benders. I can definitely slip into “sesh gremlin” mode.

Alcohol is probably my main issue. It tends to lower my guard and before I know it, I’m chasing whatever else I can get my hands on.

I bought some mushrooms a while back (not sure what strain). I’d been microdosing for a few months and honestly, it seemed to help with my anxiety and rumination, especially around existence and death.

My first proper trip was around 3.5g, but it was dampened by cocaine and alcohol. Even so, it was a positive experience — visuals, energy, good feelings.

Fast forward to recently

I went out with my dad and drank in the pub, and it was a genuinely great father-son night.

I got home, and while my wife and son were asleep, I made a very bad decision.

I took an eyeballed dose of mushrooms. No scales. No thought.

Looking back, it must have been somewhere in the region of 10–14g.

What followed was, without exaggeration, the most terrifying experience of my life.

It felt like I stepped completely outside of time and space. The fear and anxiety were beyond anything I can describe — English doesn’t have the words for it. It was pure, overwhelming existential dread.

The entire experience revolved around my deepest fears: existence, death, nothingness — on an endless loop. It felt like being trapped in it forever.

At points it felt like I was being “shown” something — that being alive matters, that existence is something we’re here to experience, and that nothingness or timelessness is too much for the human mind to comprehend.

But at the same time, it felt like hell.

The worst part is that my son was awake… or at least I think he was. It’s hard to separate what was real and what wasn’t.

I remember him being there, laughing, jumping on me, while I was completely losing control — shouting, clapping, crying, hysterical. His laughter, in that state, felt like something out of a horror film.

I genuinely believed I had died and that this was punishment. That I was in hell.

At one point, I pushed my 5-year-old son over and made him cry. That’s something I’m struggling with a lot. I did hug him and apologise straight after, but it shouldn’t have happened.

My wife didn’t know what to do.

The anxiety didn’t just stop when the peak ended. It lingered for nearly 24 hours. I’ve only just come out the other side of it.

I don’t think I want to completely write off mushrooms.

I know the dose was reckless and way beyond anything sensible. That’s on me.

And strangely, part of me feels like I did confront something real — my deepest fears, pushed to the absolute limit.

But it was dark. Really, really dark.

If nothing else, it’s made me take a long hard look at my relationship with drink and drugs, and how quickly things can spiral when I’m not in control.

If anyone’s had similar experiences or has advice on how to process something like this properly, I’d genuinely appreciate it.

Its been 25 years or so since i did any. And my wife never has but wants to. Is a gram each a good starting point? Thanks

So my husband is taking the children to an overnight fishing/camping trip on Thursday, and that means I have the house to myself!! So, I'll be eating a solid dose (7g) of enigma chocolate, by myself..alone...lol

I am a heavy cannabis user, and I also have a hard time letting go and allowing the shrooms to do their job. Should I avoid cannabis for that day? Thinking of only eating breakfast though maybe I should fast instead? Idk, gimmi a solid plan, people. The goal is to enjoy this trip, not go too deep inward, but juat enjoy the space and time alone and feel good.

Some may say 7gs is alot, but I've downed an oz of APE and only got visuals and the giggles for an hour, so I think 7gs enigma in chocolate should send me flying but not overwhelmingly.

Google suggested the James Xander playlists...any opinions? Music tends to be the hardest part of my trip, and this time, I want to be completely set up with tunes before I begin. Which one should I click play on? There's many. And if not the Xander playlists, who/what/where? I need to figure out an ad free situation, too. I have til Thursday after work to get a plan together. Someone be my guide and don't let me get in my own way!!!

<3 to all who have helpful info, thank you tremendously!

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Hi! I'm researching psilocybin's therapeutic potential, and I wanted to ask a question to people who've tripped before. I would like to note I am aware of psilocybin's therapeutic potential, and also its potential dangers.

One thing I haven't been able to figure out, or haven't read as much about, is what therapeutic insights during a trip look like?

Like do you need to focus to get insights, or do the insights arise independently of your focus, or some other way?

And what about the trips makes them so impactful and meaningful and long-lasting to people? Is there something in particular you're doing in your set and setting, something you're preparing yourself with?

I know everybody's mind works differently, and the way we process things is very different from person-to-person but I'd love an idea of what it could look like if possible! Thanks :)

Thank you!

So I’ve been dosing the same strain for a while. I’m not sure what it’s called but it gets the job done. They actually look very close to Flying Saucers. Now the only reason I know that is bc I recently had some real Flying Saucers that my brother gave me, & all I can say is “DAMN!”

I took 4gs the lemon tekk way & started tripping so hard it felt like my inner spirit was pinned against a wall as I was forced to elevate into uncharted territory.

I was SO geeked I couldn’t even look at a phone or tv screen, the visuals were unlike anything I’ve experienced. I had to sit in a dark room with some headphones to really grasp how hard I was tripping. Shortly after I was literally yelling “Damn!” To my brother. I was floored at how intense the trip was. I was staring at total darkness but was completely enamored. I was genuinely impressed by the trip I was having.

Then I suddenly felt an immense amount of love I could not ignore. I could have told anyone in the world that I loved them. I started calling loved ones around 11pm just to say I loved them. Now I understand how the hippies felt.

I regret not going outside to see the night sky, but just moving felt like I was in The Rotor ride that are at fairs. I was stuck. Just getting up from a seated position took the strength of 1,000 men. It was a trip so intense that an inexperienced martian would’ve crumbled from within, yet, it was lovely all at the same time.

I say all this to make two points:

1. Proceed with caution with new strains

2. Flying Saucers are DAMN good!

Stay safe my friends.🧙‍♂️

This past Friday to help process pent-up anxiety, I took a heroic dose (approx 6g) for the first time in almost a year. It was an insightful experience. A lot of emotions and memories bubbled to the surface. I feel like I need to do another one soon. Is this weekend too soon, or should I wait longer to get it all out of my system?

About a year ago, my friend talked about his "wonderful" experiences in psilocybin mushrooms. It got me curious but never really tried it.

Recently however, life hit a rough patch. A breakup, the shop I was working at closing, just string of things that made it feel like I was stuck in a cycle of bad luck. I tried to stay strong, but it gets to you after a while.

Somewhere in the middle of all that, I remembered what my friend said. I reached out to him, and he suggested I try microdosing. He explained what it was and how to approach it safely.

The first time I tried it, I honestly thought it was a scam because I didn’t feel anything noticeable. But after a while, I realized my mood had shifted. It was subtle, nothing dramatic, like things felt a bit lighter, and my head felt clearer.

Following his advice, I waited a couple of weeks before trying again. It was a little different, I felt more grounded and "present." I also found myself reflecting more about myself, noticing my good and bad habits more clearly, and how I can improve myself.

I'm about 3 months in now. I can't say it fixed me, but it definitely helped. One thing I've noticed though, is that it's not consistent. Some days just felt more impactful than other times and I'm not sure if that's just how it is or it's a quality thing or timing or just my own mindset. But so far, I have no bad experiences yet.

I'm curious if anyone else have the same experience of subtle inconsistency or was it normal?

hey guys

um getting immense benefit from ketamine therapy after years of treatment resistant depression and tons of medications that haven’t helped

I’m still struggling badly with sleep (though less severe than before all the aids) and ongoing chronic fatigue syndrome and mild days of depression

so I’m interested in psyllocibin (a professional I trust has pointed to plant medicines as a good option for some people in healing chronic diseases)

I would love to be off meds and doing better

where to start? I know someone who knows someone who grows

i probably would tend toward paranoia, anxiety, nausea if I had to guess

I also have kids

ahould I get a babysitter so my husband can keep me safe during a trip? anyone with CFS and know a good starting dose?

how to mitigate discomfort?

the most crazy experience i had out of the 3 times i actually tried DMT in 2022 felt more real than real.

but at the time, also left me with only more questions. i was guided by these trickster/jester like beings. and people phenomenally have encountered the same things ive researched. they are known to laugh at you because life is a cosmic joke youre encountering. or known to maybe flick a finger off at you. they are described to be the gate keepers of this realm, the first you meet. i felt during this experience of full trust and let my ego dissolve. the description of the place you meet them is a carnival like place which was also exactly how it was for me. they were lined up waving at me as i was going on the conveyer belt ride. told me to “ get fucked.” 👋 it was kind of like space mountain the track. im in this tunnel of flaring changing colors trusting where this ride was going. mind you as this was happening i didnt even know I was tripping I actually thought at EDC theyre was a ride we were all going on. i asked my friends what was that tunnel? no one had a clue what i was talking about. after the initial jet out of the tunnel my physical body dissolved and as i was being wipped around the ride like a rollercoaster i saw neon lights and dimensional shapes and physically warped into color and felt like as if my entire being was liquidized warping with the colors. when the conveyer ride was ending i was back to the tunnel and came out and was greeted again by the tricksters with their smiling faces. like how was them apples? 😂 they were neither bad or good to be described just teasing, showing illusions, like “look at this!” energy

( please be kind. i just want to hear your guises thoughts or perhaps have a similar experience? <3 )

A few weeks ago I made a post about my first (and only) experience with psilocybin. I had initially intended to take a small micro-dose (0.4 - 0.8g) amount, but in my error, I mistakenly took 3.5 grams. The actual trip itself was horrible, however in the 4 - 5 weeks that followed, my clinical depression and paralyzing anxiety seemed to slip away. I was no longer experiencing ruminating and depressive thoughts, constant crying, over-thinking, procrastinating and approaching everything with a fatalistic attitude. I was suddenly clear-headed, optimistic and proactive.

Around the 5 week mark (coinciding around the time of a return from a road trip) those positive affects seemed to wear away, and for the last few weeks I've rolled back into my former, depressive self. Since I don't have local contacts of people here who are into psilocybin, I started doing more research (as well as more research on plant medicine in general) in an attempt to better educate myself and create a plan moving forward. I recently sat in on a few webinars of a local Psychedelic Institute in my city, and was linked to a website for purchase. Their website includes capsules (0.5 g) and gummies (0.25 g) that describe as having "whole magic fruiting bodies".

With that being said, I have a few questions :

1. What could I have done to possibly prolong the positive effects of that psilocybin experience? Is a 5 week window like that standard following a macro-dose?
2. Why would my anxiety be feeling worse now? Is there usually a 'come down' period after a psilocybin experience, or am I just feeling worse because for a while I saw positive change, and have suddenly regressed?
3. What exactly are the "whole magic fruiting bodies" that are in these products? I was told these products are lab-tested and safe, however I'm confused as I see mixed feedback in this group about products like this.
4. I don't really understand the legalities of psilocybin here in the US, and was told that shipping can be done all over the US. As an immigrant here (with no room for error), this makes me concerned. If I purchase products to have shipped, is there a risk? I am also driving from California to Texas next month, would carrying them in my car also be a legal risk?

Lastly...

5. More than anything, I wish to get back to that former state (post-psycilocybin experience) of clear-headedness, and create a plan to move forward. I do not wish to repeat that horrifying experience on the 3.5 grams, and am wondering what people would suggest? Would micro-dose be my best option? And if so, how often and how much? If I was to purchase the gummies for example (at 0.25g) would it be reasonable to do 2 days on, 2 days off consuming just 1/2 or 1 gummy a day continuously?

Thank you kindly for your consideration!

I would take a small amount of mushrooms and meditate on my days off. Usually I get a very profound and enlightened experience. About 3 months ago they stopped having a effect on me so I took a break for about 3 months and tried again last Friday and nothing. So today I took a slightly larger dose and it had very little effect on me. I think maybe the mushrooms are actually a higher form of intelligence and they are saying "fuck this guy, he doesn't listen" er something along those lines. Maybe the mushrooms are the true form of our idea of god and they are the ones who created us and are supposed to teach us but if we dont listen they decide that, that individual is not worthy of being taught.

Going to try Golden teacher with some friends for the first time, we're going to a week long trip to Yosemite, it'll be all of our first times on psychedelics, we're planning on taking 2-3 grams each, im buying it off my friend who sells weed for a living but hes buying it from one his connections. How safe is it to buy golden teachers from a basically unknown source?

I had my first medium dose trip recently with golden teachers, i stayed home all day listening to meditation music, trying to resolve it. Going into the session I had set the intention that m not in it for the visuals but to resolve issues. I noticed strange blocks in my lower back, pelvic area and my left forearm.

It was a really good session I would say and I had the opportunity to unblock a few things. 48 hours later though, I am starting to feel tired to carry on "being me". Its almost feeling like I have try to be me? I don't know if that makes sense. I don't seem to have any interest in anything I used to have interest in and also have lost my appetite too.

Then I started to wonder if I am getting pseudo spiritual, like someone who takes one yoga class and starts saying namaste to everyone. Does that happen?

A little background, psilocybin has helped my mental health immensely. I had been doing micro doses and low doses and one night took more then 4-5 grams of penis envy. From what I gathered I experienced ego death and my outlook on life and productivity has improved.

The part I'm not understanding is since that moment I have tried taking 1gram and less since then a couple times but each time I always end up with acid reflux, hot and cold sweats, and intense anxiety during it. The next day I still feel great but in the trip those feelings are intense and not pleasant like when I first started. What am I missing?

So I took psilocybin and at some point during the trip I noticed some colored pencil tips near me on my bed. I picked them up and used them to draw on something.

The thing is: I live alone, I haven't bought or used colored pencils in a long time, and I hadn't moved from my bed to go get them. They shouldn't have been there.

Afterward I checked my room and found marks where I had drawn. One of the tips was actually still there.

I genuinely don't know where they came from or how they ended up near me. Has anyone experienced something like this? Finding or interacting with objects during a trip that you can't account for afterward?

Last night I did my biggest dose yet and ate 20g , to begin with it was amazing but after about 2 hours I found myself having a lot of mucus I was struggling to clear even with water. I then started to get really hot and sweating a tonne to the point my clothes were drenched and I couldn’t cool down and ended up sitting outside in shorts only in freezing temperatures. Eventually I started to come back down in temp and could start to think clearly, not going to lie it made me panic quite a bit. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced any similar effects and if they have any tips on how to negate this (apart from the obvious do lower doeses lol)