r/MuslimsRaisedByNarcs

My mom has this obsession with using bad duas to scare me from speaking up against her narc abuse. To keep me quiet and complacent. I noticed she doesn’t have the same energy to my younger or older siblings, just me and yes I am the eldest daughter unfortunately. They can make mistakes and she’ll laugh it off but is aggressive towards me and specifically wishes that I don’t have any blessings or mercy. I’ve done nothing to her to get that treatment,I’m glad my dad isn’t the same way even though he has his flaws. She mentions that her duas will get accepted because she’s my mother but she’s doing that because she wants to see me fail in life. Anytime I get a compliment, she has to shut it down mentioning embarrassing stories from when I was a kid.