My brain woke up before me and I need answers 😭
This morning I woke up and immediately heard “she’s awake.”
Like… who is monitoring me?? Why are we clocked in this early??
I’m diagnosed, but stuff like that makes me question EVERYTHING because it’s so perfectly timed. Do other people get voices that are basically live commentary??
Also my brain has been doing the absolute most lately. Example: I’m on my period, got blood on my leg, and my brain really said “taste it.”
And I LISTENED. Immediately it’s like “see, she’s a witch.”
Oh okay cool so now we’re building a case against me???
Now I’m over here fighting off thoughts that I’m a witch or reincarnated or something wild. I KNOW how that sounds but in the moment it feels real and that’s the problem.
Also convinced mirrors are portals half the time (don’t ask). I was getting ready, slightly high, staring into the mirror while “Walls Talking” by Kevin Gates was playing… yeah that did NOT help. Felt like I unlocked something I shouldn’t have. Don’t get me started on the smoke and mirrors lip gloss
Meanwhile my actual real life is also chaotic because my boyfriend has done some genuinely scary stuff (harassing my family, showing up at my house, messing with my job), so now I can’t even tell what’s paranoia vs. actual danger.
And my dreams?? Don’t even get me started. Possession dreams, random “spirit guides,” my brain is basically producing its own Netflix series at this point.
I just want one quiet day but then when it gets quiet I’m like… wait come back 😭
Does anyone else experience ANYTHING like this or is my brain just freelancing full time??