r/ChristianTeens

I truly need help getting closer to god. I am (13M) and currently feel like i need to get closer to God. Ive posted here before and got loads of help which helped me go from not believing to believing and having more faith. Now, however, I need to get close to God. I have anxiety of death, but my biggest fear is going to hell, or hearing “You were so close” or something. I pray everyday at night, sometimes during the day but usually once a day. I try to do kind deeds and be overall a nicer person by helping people with small things and giving compliments. I can’t go to church most Sunday’s since I’m with my mom, but even when I do go I feel like I’m not engaged. I have been diagnosed with ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) in the past, so that leads me to be distracted and not pay attention. I want to feel engaged and like I understand and am leaving every service closer to God. My average day goes like this. Wake up and go to school (6:30-8:00), school (8:00-2:30). On Tuesday’s and Thursday’s I have tutoring, so I leave school at 3:30, and Wednesday’s i get out 1:30. I train from 4:00 to 8:00 everyday of the week, (MMA). Once i get home I eat, shower, and go to sleep. Some of my biggest problems are cussing, lust, and using the lord’s name in vain. If someone can help me implement things that would help me get closer to god throughout my day, or help with my problems, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you!

mainly people be toxic to me on the game and I get wrathful but im trying to be calmer