r/AntinatalismSupport

Honestly, things are going really bad for me right now. Granted it always sucked, but this period in my life feels really painful.

I feel completely...lost, empty, and miserable all the time. And I feel like I can't take it anymore so thats led me to numb myself with technology. Hence, my worsening screen addiction.

I guess the reason why I feel this way is how miserable everything is. It feels painful because of the fact that you were born because there's a agenda in society where couples have to bear children in order to meet the status quo. And then you grow up to be soulless wage slave just to survive.

That's what makes me feel so lost, empty, and miserable. I don't have any trauma and I'm sure it doesn't come from some chemical imbalance.

The fact you're born to this world just for some status quo and you grow up to live the rest of your life working makes me feel so depressed. You're treated not as a human but as a cog in the machine and you get thrown away when you can't function anymore. It makes me feel sad that the world is like this and there's nothing you can do to change it.

I feel like I should seek help but I feel like I can't. I don't have anyone in my life that I can trust. My acquaintances don't really care. My family wouldn't care. And I have no trust in the mental health system anymore.

Plus, I don't think anyone would really understand and empathize with my pain, to tell you the truth.

At least, I'm glad my children will never have to experience the pain I feel.

Like bruv, I didn't choose to exist or to be born to you, so this whole "you don't appreciate what we've done for you" argument makes no sense. I don't deny the fact my parents went through a hardship to get where they are in life...but for godsake, why make it seem like I'm the one who forced you through all this🤷🏽‍♂️? Like I'm the one who made you go through all this pain and struggle, when it was YOU who chose to become a parent knowing the reality you're throwing yourself into.

To make matters worse, I've shown the appreciation they so desperately want so many times. Got them gifts for birthdays, tokens of appreciation and so on I can't even remember....I've just come to realize they choose not to acknowledge it🤷🏽‍♂️.

Was there some kind of contract or agreement that I signed before we were born or something? I don't know....because fucking hell man, I get why they want something back in return so much? I thought life was a "gift" and parenthood was a selfless act? Where is the "owing" coming from???