Close your eyes and picture an apple.

Okay, now think the word "apple" in your head.

I can't do either of those things.

I have Aphantasia - no mental images. Complete darkness when I close my eyes. But I also have something called Anendophasia - no inner voice. My head isn't just dark. It's silent too.

And for the longest time, I thought I was the only one.

What's it like?

My thoughts don't have pictures or words. They just... are. Pure concepts. Abstract feelings. When I think about an apple, I don't see red or hear the word. I just know what an apple is. It's like the meaning exists without any sensory wrapper.

Try explaining that to someone at a party.

"Wait, so you don't hear your own thoughts?"

"Nope."

"Then how do you think?"

"I just... do?"

Confused stares.

Why I'm posting this

I've been active in Aphantasia communities for a while. And every now and then, I'd see someone mention they also don't have an inner monologue. The comments would light up:

"Wait, that's a thing?"

"I thought it was just me!"

"Is there a name for this??"

But here's the thing - there wasn't really a dedicated space for people with both. Aphantasia spaces focus on visualization. Inner voice discussions are scattered. And if you're like me - existing in that quiet, dark intersection - you kind of fall through the cracks.

So I made one.

What I built

It's a Discord server called Aphantasia + Anendophasia. Nothing fancy. Just a place where:

- You can talk to people who actually get it

- Self-assignable roles so you can share your specific experience (aphantasia only, anendophasia only, both, or just curious)

- Channels for questions, experiences, memes, resources

- No pressure to explain yourself - everyone there already understands

We're small but growing. And the conversations have been genuinely meaningful. People sharing things they've never said out loud because they finally found others who live in the same silent, image-free headspace.

If this resonates with you

You're not broken. You're not alone. And there's now a corner of the internet with your name on it.

Come hang out: https://discord.com/invite/etp3g3h4X3

If you have Aphantasia, Anendophasia, both, or you're just curious about how your brain works - you're welcome here.

Happy to answer questions in the comments too. This stuff is fascinating to talk about, and I've learned a lot from others in this sub over the years.

I see people talking about how having no internal monologue is so weird and unnatural, but I'm wondering why people aren't talking about the opposite.

I always thought it was a way to help get a character's expressions across easier to the viewer, like tea kettle steaming sound effects when someone is angry or sweating when someone is nervous that played in kids' cartoons.

So, because of that, I've conjured up a list of questions that I hope you people can answer.

Don't you get tired of it?

When you think about another thing, does it stop narrating or does your train of thought start to flow like a video presentation?

Is the voice the same as your speaking voice?

Is it constant?

Does it exist in your dreams?