How do I lose weight if I can't count calories?
I've gained about 80 pounds in the last 2 years. I had to quit my very physical job when I had my daughter and then my son started having seizures and needed someone home 24/7. I got really anxious, depressed, no sleep, and sat around waiting on his next seizure and next thing I know I've gained quite a bit of weight on top of not losing the baby weight. I'm 5' 4" 200lbs.
I grew up with an ED and thought I was past it. I started walking on a treadmill this week and I keep focusing on the flashing calories burned and all I can think of is how little that is and my husband brought up that I'm not really eating and when I do I'm obsessing over calories. I feel like I'm headed back to the ED very quickly and I know that's not what I want my kids to think is normal or ok
I've started walking a mile in the evenings after dinner which is about as far as I can get before my asthma and hips start acting up. I'm drinking ~60 oz of water a day now and I'm down to having about a half a can of soda with dinner. I'm not eating as fast so I'm eating less already. I find myself counting calories and wanting to go walk after every meal to burn the same amount of calories I just ate. I don't want to go down that road again so any advice is welcome.
P.S.-I'm trying to slowly habit build and in the next week or two I want to start doing yoga (kids want to join in on that) and after that find some way at home to do some kind of weights in my very limited space. I'm sorry if this is a mess I'm just exhausted and trying to better myself for my kids and show them a healthier lifestyle than they've seen from me before.