u/wuspinio

I grew up a xennial, so all records of my younger self are not in digital format but recently my parents had all their camcorder tapes digitised. I’d been excited to watch but now in my mid 40s being diagnosed with ADHD about 4 years ago, I’m wondering if seeing me then is going to trigger some sort of existential crisis.

I remember when I was going for my diagnosis I dug out an old school report from 1992 and when I read it I was surprised to see it was basically like a tick list of inattentive ADHD traits sprinkled with some classic 90s adjectives such as “lazy”. When I first saw it I had no memory of anything but basically positive feedback (I was the child with so much potential if I would just put my mind to it type) but I’m beginning to fear that I’d somehow built a persona to protect from the criticism and negativity about things I would’ve been struggling with, which in hindsight I had very little power or skill to do anything about.

It will be great to see some of the creative stuff that I used to get up to like making skits and TV shows with my sister or the stop-frame animation hyper focus projects but is it worth the potential can of worms?