Just tried Brian Weiss’ meditation for the first time
I’ve honestly never felt so still, like I’m being wrapped in a heavy, yet light, blanket of calmness. I could no longer feel my body. This might sound stupid but I’ve always felt a a strange fascination and connection to the colour blue, and I’ve always loved swimming in my now life. I did get a flash of an image at the start of some sort of boat and the sea and a white bird, but I honestly couldn’t tell if my brain was making things up. I was told to imagine my birth, I saw doctors stood around but when I thought about being loved, I just started sobbing. Even though I’m so calm and still like I don’t have a body, there’s something painful. I haven’t been able to stop sobbing for the rest of this session and I’m still crying now and I haven’t no idea why.
Later on, my mind went back to that scene when I delved in and I was a little boy on the beach running over to the sea and the dock where people were stood. I didn’t “see” when I died, but I remember laying down in the sand and feeling nothing. I couldn’t see myself grown up and I couldn’t see anyone else except the people in that one moment. For some reason I saw someone who looked exactly like my now grandad who passed away years ago. His back was turned but I felt like I knew him and as I got closer, he turned to the side and I felt I’d seen him before. I can’t seem to move past this one moment where I’m stood there watching the people nearby at the dock, I can’t move anywhere out of that moment. How do you get past this?
I feel so weirdly calm now. Maybe I was crying cause a part of me felt “blocked”