Ugh
Feels like having “hope” isn’t worth it anymore. I try my hardest to remain positive & grateful, but it getting harder day by day. I’m 26 & honestly I can’t imagine dealing with this disease the rest of my life?? It truly looks like everyone has it better than me. Yes I know compassion is the thief of joy, but holy cow. Everyone has hair, great job, apartment/houses, traveling, husbands/boyfriends , babies.. and me? CANCER, hot flashes, invisible sex drive, living with my mom, losing hair, brain fog, skin problems, ANXIETY.
Not to mention I feel so bad that I can’t properly show up for my mom tomorrow for Mother’s Day. Everyone wants me around, but I don’t want to keep dealing with this. I feel like a burden. Putting on a mask just to keep everyone happy. I pray everyday that this goes away. It’ll be a year in July. I don’t even want to think about doing this for another year let alone another month. Sorry I know this isn’t nice but no one gets it.