hare krishna dandwat pranams agtsp
im a 17 year old devotee from mumbai, the only devotee in my entire extended family. my family is mostly not religious, except days like lakshmi pooja etc. ive suffered with depression , mental health issues, severe diagnosed anxiety when i was 15 and 16. iskcon and krishna really genuinely helped with my mental health, if it werent for iskcon, i wouldnt be here today, so to "pay back" to the unforgettable and the biggest favour, ive been wanting to become a full time brahmachari in the future. ive been regularly, secretly attending mangala aartis every other day, ive been using my counter to complete at least 14 rounds japa everyday. ive also not consumed any non vegetarian food since 6 months now.
coming to the main topic, ive been abused physically, mentally and emotionally just because i told my family i go to the temple. ive been taunted at family dinners, im forced to make vegetarian food for myself because my family wont let me eat vegetarian while they eat non vegetarian food. my personal altar with my deities is locked away in a cupboard in my room out of fear that someone might see it.
this is really becoming very unbearable for me, i cant do this anymore. i have a few contacts from the temple, but i dont want to text them looking like im begging for sympathy. i am planning to escape to mayapur or vrindavan (mostly mayapur), but im still a minor so im very indecisive on what to do and where to go. please help me. any suggestions, contacts, recommendations are welcome.
hare krsna