Im so thirsty
For the past year Ive been having multiple panic attacks a day when Im out of my house. Anytime Im in a situation where I feel trapped I start panicing and when I panic it feels like Im going to lose control and pee my pants.
Its so embarrassing and I feel childish even saying it but its my unfortunate reality and I deal with it all day everyday.
Being at work is the hardest and Im at a point where I barely drink any liquids because Im too scared to. I stop drinking 3-4 hours before work and I dont have any liquids again until I get home 11 hours later. Its currently been 6 hours since my last drink and Im so thirsty but Im going to be in a lot of unleavable situations today so I cant chance it.
I just hate this disorder so much. I quit smoking over a year ago because I thought thats what was causing this but its only gotten worse since. I also quit drinking all artificial sweeteners and it seemed to help a small bit but Im still struggling.
I just needed to vent about it somewhere.