Overthinking!
There have been some recent events in my life which have made me question many things about the life that we’re given. My grandfather has severe dementia, he’s mostly not aware of his surroundings now and it pains me to see him that way. He was one of the most intelligent and simplest man I knew but he never really believed in God. He did yoga, but most of it was the physical exercise aspect of it. He used to question religion and never felt any need to be spiritual, and now there is no way to it too since his mind is no longer in his control.
It made me wonder, how a life passes by without ever knowing your truth. It made me fear a little if that happens to me. It made me question my existence and just what am I doing with my life, stressing over littlest of things when they’re all temporary and would eventually pass away. It also made me question if i am worthy enough to be actually able to realise my Self. I was overthinking so much about it that it felt like an entrance test which I might fail in this life and i will have to repeat a class. Then my anxiety grew because I’ve never really been good with entrance tests.
Just wanted to know how do I calm myself in situations like these and withdraw from all the noise.