u/tantrobite

Im a dad of three girls and this news of probable treatment has kind of shot me out of denial. Talk of treatment in the summer possibly. They talk good success rates but im still scared. I know it's stupid but does anyone else have this feeling of grossness with the cll. Like I feel like my blood is dirty, and I cant get it out of my head. Ive always looked after myself and like looking and dressing well, but I suddenly feel gross from the inside out. Maybe its just me, I wanted to check-in with the sub first on it. I also wanna know about side effects to m, did anyone take a break from work for a time at the start of treatment and if so how long?