Poor 4th year MSPE evaluation in january. SOAPed into a surgery prelim and now freaking out
I fucked up big time. Our school requires us to do 4 weeks of outpatient medicine in our 4th year. At this point I already had a strong feeling I wouldn't match due to a low # of interviews. This was definitely not my best rotation and I was somewhat going through the motions (preventative & primary care stuff is not really my cup of tea) but the written evaluation is pretty scathing. The comments say "written and oral presentations were below par", "did not demonstrate enthusiasm for outpatient IM", and "did not seem engaged throughout the rotation". It mentions that patients enjoyed speaking with me and I did the work and not disrespectful, but this is the first and only time that legitimately negative comments have showed up in the section that is publishable on my MSPE.
Now I'm about to start a surgery prelim and reapply ortho (with at least one backup), but I'm terrified that this is going to fully tank my reapplication. Anyone been in a similar situation? This has been weighing incredibly heavily on me.