Completely miserable and want to go home
I just finished my first week abroad in Germany and I’m so miserable here. My room is moldy and smells bad, my bedding is uncomfortable, my wifi doesn’t work, my key doesn’t work so I just have to pray someone lets me into the building every time, I have to take the bus to go anywhere and I’ve been living off of bread and butter. My German isn’t very good and no one speaks English so it’s difficult for me to do really anything. I’m so miserable here. Today is Easter and everyone at home is spending time with each other laughing and eating treats and a home cooked meal and all I have is stale bread and being alone. I miss my family and friends and good food and everything. I’m literally counting down the days until I can go home but I still have around 100 days left. Sometimes I wish for a medical or family emergency that would give me an excuse to go home. I feel so guilty because I know I’m supposed to be happy here, and taking advantage of the experience but I’d give literally anything to leave this country. I haven’t felt this low in years, I cry for hours daily. I feel trapped and I don’t want to do anything except sleep to hopefully make time go faster. I don’t even know what to do anymore, does anyone have any advice at all?