Reached out to ex. Feeling humiliated.
Broke no contact after a few months. We had a mutual (yet painful) breakup.
I reached out asking if they would be open to talk. After a couple of hours (longest couple of hours of my life,) they respond "Okay."
I sent a massive message telling them about what I've been up to, all the lessons I've learned while away, apologizing for my mistakes, and then I finally informed them that I still would like to try again. That I still want them to be a part of my future. That I don't want to give up.
They read the message right away. It's been several hours and no response.
I can't tell if their non-response is THE response, or they're thinking about everything (again, they took a long time to even respond to my first text.)
I spent the first few hours pacing around my house and then tried to get busy with work. I feel so paralyzed and sick to my stomach.
I feel like I made a massive mistake. I just wish I could get any response. A rejection would hurt like hell but it'll help me move on.
I'm fucking exhausted