I hate you
I hate all of you. I hate my family, I hate my friends. I hate everybody I’ve ever dated. I hate my country. I hate human society. I hate myself.
Almost nobody has ever taken the time to teach me anything in my entire life. I have never been allowed to follow my dreams. My whole life has been disappointment and witnessing the failure of everything I have been taught to believe in. But then, even at my weakest moments, I was told that this is a failure of my own self and character, despite doing everything I have been told to do. Even going the extra distance has never been enough, and never will.
I genuinely hope I have a stroke in my sleep so that I don’t have to deal with waking up in the morning to this stupid fucking life. These endless wars, endless disgusting greed and stupidity. But I won’t, and I will have to suck it up and “be strong” for people who never gave a fuck about me and simply use up my time and wellbeing for their own benefit, while I receive basically nothing in return. Nothing about my existence has ever mattered, or will ever matter, but I can’t talk about that or it’s “uncomfortable.”
There was never any choice in any of this. I’m not weak. I’m not stupid. Our world is a fucking joke and I’ll never be happy on this garbage fucking planet.
Fuck you all.