u/reallybruhhh2

Hey im 19 and i started smoking in 2024. At first i started doing it for fun but soon i found myself smoking when i was stressed. It made me feel pathetic to smoke when i was stressed so i decided to only smoke when i wasnt, hoping i wouldnt get addicted and somehow it worked i could control my urges. So i smoked only when i consciously wanted to. In jan this year i decided to quit even the ones for fun cuz tbh i madr me feel awful afterwards. The anxiety and nausea was unbearable. I kept fighting the urges until i UNFORTUNATELY decided to smoke again. I smoked only 19th April because i was really stressed. I know it may not feel like a big deal but IT FELT SO GOOD LIKE I HAD NONE OF THE SIDE EFFECTS LIKE NAUSEA AND ALL. So i smoked again yesterday and it felt good. NOW I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. Im constantly stressed duw to some personal reasons and it makes me want to smoke. I dont want to get addicted. Ive seen my brother get addicted hes a mess. Plus smoking will mess with my gym goals😔 someone please help me out i dont wanna fall into this