New teacher and screamed at my after school club :(
As the title says today in my after school club I screamed at my students and I’m looking for some general advice about how to go forward.
For some context I am a new teacher in a primary school. I started a few weeks and as I am a specialist subject teacher I’ve not done a PGCE or other formal teacher training.
The school I’m in is generally very chatty and don’t listen to instructions well. Not necessarily naughty but certainly a bit difficult.
In my after school club today we were trying to get some activities done but they were running around the classroom. There’s only about 10 of them but trying to get them involved was very difficult. In between and during the activities they were screaming at each other and screaming at me. None of the regular classroom management techniques were working, I’d tried to say we had the same expectations as the classroom and trying clapping games and things to get them to quiet down but none of it was working. I know they were probably just excitable and having fun but it really got to me.
I eventually lost it and screamed at them. I didn’t say anything crazy, I think I screamed “we need to be quiet” but honestly I think I scared them. I did apologise for it but I just saw red in the moment and was completely overwhelmed.
Honestly I don’t know if most of them want to come back, and I don’t know if I’d blame them. I be never screamed at anyone if my life like that. I really wanted just to be a fun teacher where they could come and have a good time and I think I’ve ruined that with my screaming :(
Any advice on how to keep my cool, rebuild the relationship with them, set better standards for them club? Anything would be greatly appreciated thank you so much!!