u/pommybear2

Just feel like death is calling me

My head says listen to my heart

My heart says listen to my head

This is the problem

It can’t focus

It can’t listen

Miscommunication

I’m here

Yet NOBODY is listening

I’m screaming at the top of my lungs

My throat is red raw

My hands are bloody

My eyes are weeping

Yet I’m here

And NOBODY is listening

Dark lonely and cold

Stuck and frozen in time

The reality is stuck

Surrendering to the poison and pain

Maybe another won’t hurt our loved ones

It’s in my head

It’s not coming out

It’s wielding it deeper

It’s bursting through the seams

It’s pouring out of crevices you don’t see

It’s leaking

Drop by drop

It’s controlling me :/

How much more pain do I have to be in for you all to see me?

Does my tears have to run red?

Does my screams have to be louder?

Does my body have to be skinner?

Does my wounds have to be deeper?