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A poem I wrote today

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Mother Mother

I miss you so

Even though

We both know

You chose to go

Mother Mother

I love you still

After every bitter word

And the wounds you never healed

Mother Mother

I need you now

When I'm lying face down

On the ground

When I'm crying

When I'm bleeding

When I can't sleep at night

When there's no more light

Behind my eyes

And I can't remember

A word you've ever said

Or if the sound of your voice

Is music to my head

Late some nights

When I'm walking home

I wonder if Id feel so alone

If you'd never let me go

Mother Mother,

would you help me?

Or would you make me cry?

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This is a poem about my relationship with religion and religious institutions. I wrote this when I was 16. I was a broke gay teenager on the verge of homelessness with my family and even in the midst of my suffering my parents would still find ways to hate me through religion or a different lens to find someone to commonly hate. It's a poem of exhaustion from when I hated myself.

My preacher said

He died for my sins

I know what he meant

The sinful life that I live

My sin is of love

But they don't agree

With me

The sins of the world

They make us unpure

My sin is love

My sinful atrocities

The book says to love

But they turn their backs

And they let me cry

They let me cry

They let me cry

I know I do wrong

But the Bible tells them

Love one another

As I have loved you

Learn to hate the sin

And not the ones who commit

Yet they throw stones

But they haven't felt

The pain I feel inside

As I deal with this torment

My mother's preacher

Took two lives

But he had his faith

So he let him slide

But I lay with a man

So Im turned away

He's all forgiving

Unless you are gay

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This is a poem about myself, my mind, and how it affects my relationships with others like my parents.

My teeth are rotting

Black to the core

My body's way of keeping score

They crack and chip

They throb with pain

And still I go on day after day

Building my life around that pain

I remember only the idea of him

And she was far too late to rescue me

I miss them both even now

But it's too late

There's nothing left to care about

My teeth have rotted

Black to the core

My body tired of keeping score

I never had the time to search

So I lay awake some nights

Wondering if you'd even cry

If your baby had taken his own life

But I'll l never know the answer now

You're 6 feet deep in frozen ground

Your bodies rot just like my teeth

Growing old and growing weak

And I see the cracks inside you lies

Life's come to collect for all you owe

It's time to reap what you have sown

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This is a poem I wrote about my relationship with my mother. It was born from something she told me when we were arguing when I was 16.

You say I'm too serious

maybe your jokes just aren't funny

Or maybe it's cause

I'm the butt of the joke

The beer can you set up to refine your shot

Your laughter like bullets piercing my skin

I know I can't shoot so I'll let you win

You know what sickness looks like

So why oh why couldn't you see mine

How could you sit there and watch your baby cry

Your eyes on my frame

"Getting pudgier" you'd say

But you say it so blankly as if it's all you see

As if it's all there is to me

As if my body alone could make you proud

But what good is a body if your mind isn't sound

If death sings to you a lovely sound

When laughter means shooting someone else down

That's why I'm alone

That's why I am free

Since I stopped letting you walk all over me

Now laughter is nothing but a sound

One I use to drown my thoughts out

A ray of sun on a cool autumn day

No longer is it laced with the words that you'd say

And even now I miss you so

But love doesn't mean burying your own soul

So everyday I let you go

And everynight the wound feels fresh

But my mind is burdened a little less

So I fight for myself and the life I never had

In hope that I'll be strong enough to have you back one day

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Hello,

I write quite a lot of poems but never really share them with anyone. I thought I'd give this a try before sharing them with anyone close to me. Feel free to give any feedback or if you have any questions let me know please.

Thank you.

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I'm a cheap plastic doll

In a glass display

You look at me but never stay

To ask if I'm okay

I see so many faces I recognize

Do they see me when they meet my eyes

Or do they see every mistake I've made

All the ones up on display

Everything I fight so hard to hide

My mind isn't as sharp as it was

The glass is chipping at the edge

I'm growing older now

But when I cry at night I still feel weak

And no one knows how hard I try

Hours in the mirror looking at my eyes

Searching for someone I recognize

All I see is a stranger inside

Everything makeup cannot hide

My face a collage of all my lies

Everything's up for display

Is that why no one asks if I'm okay

Is that why days seem to pass me by

Is it all just a matter of time

Before the glass comes crashing down

And I'm buried in the wreckage now

I'm buried in my wreckage now

A cheap plastic doll

Up for display

People look but never stay

Or is it cause I turn away

Afraid to go another day

Afraid to let someone see

The person that I want to be

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