Jesus helped me, literally just then.
So this isn’t satire, check my comment history etc I am not a Christian. I come from a Muslim background but I’m not practicing, I’ve always, well, at least over the past two years been “atheist”.
Today (just then) I was at work in the toilets crying my eyes out with tears. Im a recovering meth and weed addict, and I was informed for my job I have (which pays my rent and keeps me not being homeless) , I need to do a drug test on Thursday.
Realistically I know there’s a chance I’ll fail, I’ve only been clean 33 days, I was having a meltdown, shaking, crying, dry reaching.
Then,
I felt this immense peace, this feeling of warmth on my face like someone was wiping my tears. As soon as this happened, I just said “Jesus, I love you, I love you so much”
I don’t know why, but it helped. I’m not crying, I feel intense peace right now, as if someone is with me, protecting me from anxiety and depression.
No idea how long this will last, but I just CANNOT stop thinking of Jesus.
I’m sorry if this sounds crazy, I’m still shocked.