For people who started BJJ with zero grappling background, how did you handle feeling overwhelmed by the experience and knowledge gap at first?
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I started bjj about three months ago as a step out of my comfort zone and while it is intimidating, I do enjoy the training and rolling. Alot of times though I suffer with information overload and it is hard to rememeber everything we drill. Usually my rolls end up with me trying to just survive against someone more experienced either in bjj or just a wrestling background (sometimes I can get a solid pin or submission). It gets a bit frustrating when you find yourself having bad habits, (my big one is improper posture and hand placement when caught in someone's closed guard, which leads to either a armbar or triangle).
I can agree that I am better than I was when I first started but sometimes those bad habits make me feel like "bro did you learn anything at all?". Pretty lucky to have a humble rolling partners but sometimes I have that creeping thought of "man I just wasted this person's time". Definitely not going to quit but sometimes it gets a bit tough.
How did you handle those feelings when you first started?
Edit:thanks for the great advice everyone. Someone mentioned ego death and I agree. My inner perfectionist makes me forget that this is hobby that I should enjoy and embrace instead of treating it like another job.