Are we all just crawling to the finish line?
8 more rounds of Taxol to go...I've done the surgeries, the Red devil, lost ALL my hair, regrown my hair, losing my hair again for the second time which is somehow worse, been bleeding on and off for over a month (chemo pause?), dealt with the setbacks and delays, infected port, port removal as it broke through the skin etc....
I'm so so over it. I want a normal life back thay doesn't involve appointments, chemo and feeling like a freak everytime I leave the house. I want to play with my 4 year old and do all the fun kid things with energy and good health
I'll still need to do radiation after.
And then? Follow up MRIs on these ol' dense breasts until they find something? Isn't recurrance meant to likely recur in the lungs, brain and bones?
Am I meant to finish this marathon and then spend the next 5 years feeling like I can't move on?
Sorry for the vent. I'm angry. Frustrated. Struggling to see the silver lining.