Rushed to apply this cycle and shot myself in the foot, what to do from here?
Hey guys I debated not posting cus it's kinda me venting but I need some advice. I just feel so lost right now and unfairly angry at my family and I don't wanna take it out on them when this is all my fault so writing is a healthier avenue yk. if anyone has any advice tho I'd appreciate it.
Really wanted to rush my MCAT while in school to apply this cycle because my parents and brother were pressuring me (parents still don't believe in gap years and I'm figuring out now brother just wanted a guinea pig cus he's applying next cycle), and also cus my bsf is applying and we rly wanna go to med school together. So yeah I decided to listen to my not even 18 year old brother and my parents, who studied outside the country and barely know what a passage based exam is, over the 3/3 medical students that recommended I gap. ik. stupid.
I take full responsibility for my choice. I've always been the impressionable, "doesn't know when to say 'no'" wuss and here it is playing out again. Literally up until January 2026 I was set on taking a gap and then all the sudden I changed my mind, lured by the possibility that I will save a year of my life and pushed by the "gap years are for losers you will just sit on the coach and eat potato chips" narrative pushed by my family which is quite frankly unaware of the shear competitiveness of the process. I literally have an EMT license so I could easily find work.
Now I've delayed my Ochem 2 to focus on MCAT and have a brutal Fall 2026 waiting for me + I just got a D+ on my biochem exam, which is a class my alr low gpa was really depending on for an A (had a 95% before this exam) but I am now disqualified from getting an A in it (ran the numbers). and if I don't get my mcat done this summer I'll have to wait til next summer and take TWO gap years.
I have a summer internship may 26-july 31 that I'm considering dropping just to catch my breath but I think best move is to continue studying through the internship, do most AAMC materials through august and take it on August 22. thoughts? thanks advance.