I can spend $500K on a business decision without blinking… but $200 on myself feels impossible
I can drop $500K on a business decision and not think twice.
But spending $200 on myself?
I’ll overthink it for days… and usually not do it.
No luxury watches. No fancy cars.
I don’t even know how to shop for “nice things.”
From the outside, people call it discipline.
But honestly, it doesn’t feel like that.
It feels like I’m wired to see anything that doesn’t generate a return as a bad decision.
Every dollar spent on enjoyment feels like a loss.
Like I’m doing something wrong.
And I think it comes from how I grew up — always being careful, always thinking about ROI, always optimizing.
Here’s the weird part:
That same mindset helped me build wealth.
But it’s also making it hard to actually enjoy it.
Feels like a double-edged sword.
I’m trying to fix it, but it’s not as simple as “just spend more.”
Anyone else deal with this?
How do you rewire this without feeling guilty every time you spend on yourself?