u/marathimulgi30

Honestly, I never thought I’d cry over a patient I never met.

So, most of you might not know, but I work in clinical research. Agar mai ekdam simple bhasha mein samjhaun toh har samay poori duniya mein bohot saare clinical trials hote rehte hain. Clinical Trials - the trials done on actual patients before a drug(medication) is launched into the market, to test the efficacy of that drug. Toh mere pas jo bhi clinical trials k projects hote hain, unmein jo bhi patients enrolled hote hain worldwide, I deal with that patient data.

So initially, jab mai yeh kaam seekh rhi thi, mujhe bohot time lagta tha ek ek case krne mein, aur mai bohot zyada frustrate hojaati thi until one day, when I received my FIRST DEATH CASE!!!

I, very vividly remember, a 51-year old patient from India, already suffering from lung cancer, pericardial effusion and pulmonary embolism. It literally shook me from within and I still remember that feeling.

Us din mujhe realise hua ki jinhe hum SUBJECTS kehte hain, not even patients, just ‘SUBJECTS’, they are actually real people with real families and stories.

You might find it a bit dramatic but the realisation that somebody in my country lost their father, their brother, their husband, their friend, left me in tears. Us din mai phoot phoot ke royi.

I know agar aap medical field mein ho toh you cannot be emotional about everything but it’s way easier said than done.

If someone’s associated with the medical field is reading this, have you also felt this emotional turmoil? I would love to know that I am not alone in this.

Guess who got attacked by a monkeyyy? Me😎but the kind of over optimistic person I am, I strictly believe in Jo hota hai acche k liye hota hai. I finally got to know how the warm embrace of a monkey feels like😋woh toh usne mujhe hanuman chalisa padhne ka mauka nahin diya warna jai hanuman gyan gun saagar jai kapees tinhu lok ujaagar tak aate aate aajtak saare bandar saand bail jitne khatarnaak hamla krne wale jaanwar hain sab bhaag gaye hain, pr this came as a surprise. Maybe, Hanuman ji wanted to bless me isliye unhone mere sar pe hath rkhke aashirvaad dene k liye apna special doot bheja. Another benefit is that aise usually mai vaccines ka route of administration bhool jati hu but aaj ke baad mai kabhi nahin bhoolungi ki rabies ki vaccine intramuscular nahin intradermal lagti hai. In the end i would only like to say ki buri nazar wale tumhare muh pe acne hojayein, tumhari maggi mein maggi masala na nikle, aur tumhari company tumko layoff krde (nahin yeh thoda zyada hojayega, pehle wale 2 hi theek hain) Chalo guys ja rahi hu doosri dose lagwane. Raam Raam

Guess who got attacked by a monkeyyy? Meeeeeee😎but the kind of over optimistic person I am, I strictly believe in Jo hota hai acche k liye hota hai. I finally got to know how the warm embrace of a monkey feels like😋woh toh usne mujhe hanuman chalisa padhne ka mauka nahin diya warna jai hanuman gyan gun saagar jai kapees tinhu lok ujaagar tak aate aate aajtak saare bandar saand bail jitne khatarnaak hamla krne wale jaanwar hain sab bhaag gaye hain, pr this came as a surprise. Maybe, Hanuman ji wanted to bless me isliye unhone mere sar pe hath rkhke aashirvaad dene k liye apna special doot bheja. Another benefit is that aise usually mai vaccines ka route of administration bhool jati hu but aaj ke baad mai kabhi nahin bhoolungi ki rabies ki vaccine intramuscular nahin intradermal lagti hai. In the end i would only like to say ki buri nazar wale tumhare muh pe acne hojayein, tumhari maggi mein maggi masala na nikle, aur tumhari company tumko layoff krde (nahin yeh thoda zyada hojayega, pehle wale 2 hi theek hain) Chalo guys ja rahi hu doosri dose lagwane. Raam Raam