u/lovingdrzayne

Hi, I just discovered this subreddit today and was going through posts of unemployment. I was surprised there's such a thing as ghost listing! Now I'm like... No wonder I barely got any callbacks.

So backstory. In 2022, I quit my job at a tuition center. I was promoted to assistant manager but it caused me so much stress that I realized management role is not for me. After that I applied for a number of jobs and only Recruitexpress got back to me with a bank job offer.

I didn't want to work in the banking industry since I had family members who worked in banks and they were burned out. But my mom and friends were like, if you don't try, you'll never know. So since I had nothing else, I accepted the job.

Last year in May, I quit my job. I gave myself 2 years to gauge if banking industry is for me. I was in the CDD/AML unit so workload is really demanding. Our unit also has high turnover.

And at the same time, my mom had some health issues and I was the primary caretaker so had a lot of back-and-forth polyclinic/hospital appointments. So I signed on for a CCP (TA) course for data analysis, figuring I should take advantage of the subsidy to upskill myself in the meantime.

I finished the course in Nov 25 and now my mom's appointments are more spaced out so I started actively applying for jobs. I know ofc my foundational knowledge in things like Excel, Python and Power BI won't get me a data analyst job from the get-go but I still tried looking for jobs that deal with these tools, hoping I'd get the opportunity to learn and grow in the job.

But after 2-3 months of almost nothing (I had 1 callback and it's clear they needed someone with actual hands-on data cleaning experience), I had to expand my job search and was applying for generic admin stuff. Then since last month, as my savings are drying up and I was desperate, I decided to apply for jobs in the industries I'd left like banking and education. But still crickets.

I know the job market is bad now, and I'm even contemplating just applying for jobs at fast food restaurants or supermarkets now bec I really need the income esp for the bills and insurance etc (forget spending or traveling etc). But finding out there's such a thing like ghost listing, I'm like... How do I know what are the legit job openings out there?

Any advice would be appreciated (by the way, I do tweak my resumes to fit the JD which I know is a hot tip)

Thank you 🙏

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On the official reddit, I'd post about understanding the context behind the sexual intimacy in Diviner's Hymn. I'd posted a follow-up thread on X explaining it from the CN context but u/Laticia_1990 made me realize I didn't post on reddit, likely because it might have not gotten past the mods.

So posting my write-up here if anyone's interested~ It's not that long, lol.

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Why sexual intimacy was the way MC had to heal...

When Zayne exchanged his powers, blood and core for the Creatio stone, those things became bound to the Creatio stone.

Side note : Thanks to SnowOsmanthus on X, I realized it's not merely Zayne's metaphysical heart. It's his own divine core that was set upon the scale.

Later when he extracted MC's own divine core that he'd assimilated into his body, and it melted into blood to fall upon the Creatio stone, his own divine powers and lifeforce that were tied to the Creatio stone jumpstarted MC's divine lifeforce and it was how she was resurrected (the first heartbeat).

Now despite originally being a divine being with her own powers, when she resurrected, she was not 100% herself. It's why she could get hurt.

I mentioned in my analysis that when a protocore has exhausted its energy, the host cannot revive. This is what likely happened to MC in her previous life.

And I'd also missed a point in my analysis. Whilst at the netherworld, she saw vivid bloody memories, which further implies her death had been tragic and violent to the point of no return for her soul.

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So for MC, her original powers would likely be resonance. The way things grew under her touch and gaze came from the Creatio stone. And her ability to fight and defeat monsters would come from Zayne's power of annihilation and the reason her blade could turn into an arrow with his longbow.

So since she's sustained by both Zayne's lifeforce and the Creatio stone, when she was hurt, in order to heal properly and quickly, she'd need a boost of healing energy. And this could only come from Zayne whose lifeforce flowed through her.

In Daoism, there is a philosophy called Three Treasures which is the foundation of life and health, also known as internal alchemy (neidan) : jing (essence), qi (energy) and shen (spirit).

Jing is the fundamental substance in a body, from which qi and shen can arise.

In males, jing is mainly connected to semen while for women, it's the ovum.

Hence in context with ZayneMC's relationship, it makes sense now why the ritual healing has to be through sexual intimacy. Zayne's jing carries the 'essence of life' which enabled the flow of qi and shen into MC, healing her.

Hence the reason the act had to be in the form of a ritual healing is because it is not for pleasure or indulgence. It's a sacred interaction that is aimed at restoring MC's internal harmony and heal her.

As I explained in the DH kindled scene breakdown post, it's why Zayne told MC to focus and they could not end the ritual on a whim. Someone said it's akin to a surgery; once it starts, you can't stop it, which I agree.

This is the breakdown post if you've not read it before: https://www.reddit.com/r/LoveAndDeepspace/comments/1nsfun5/understanding_the_context_of_zaynes_diviners_hymn/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Hi back with a 2nd breakdown post. The link is below. I just noticed we have a crosspost option... I've never tried it before so maybe next time if I have another post, I'll see if I can crosspost it here too.

In the meantime : https://www.reddit.com/r/LoveAndDeepspace/s/Aaa0ptSYr5

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Impt Notes:
• Spoilers ahead
• My understanding and interpretation of CN text is in context of EN loc so nuances will be missed
• My own thoughts so take it with a grain of salt

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Screenshots for the full post-kindled scene, one in EN loc and the other in CN using translator.

Disclaimer: I don't understand Chinese and will not do the passage justice but I hope it's enough for you to appreciate its beauty even with skin-deep interpretation.

https://preview.redd.it/8jztm7xctxyg1.jpg?width=377&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=aabfb0bcb44ed2d3074b7f1dfda4c0d917503256

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1. Rain

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This is after Zayne gets his release, his body heated. The mention of rain is interesting. Granted, it's always raining in Qingping Village but rain has been seen in Zayne's stories.

It rained in Fragrant Possession when Zayne was jealous. During the wedding event story, it rained just before ZayneMC rang the Bell of Vows. It also rained in the Wanderer's protofield in GoA. We don't quite know yet the significance of rain for Zayne (interestingly, for Caleb as the narrative foil, we know it's a sign of his yearning from the Netherlord myth). However it's interesting rain is part of the opening liner of this scene and also part of the closing later on.

2. Spring silkworm

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MC teases Zayne that even a deity can experience and partake in pleasure. This is yet another issue that caused some vulnerability in MC. In my kindled scene breakdown, I mentioned the full circle moment with Zayne's name. Now here, it's going to be about his identity.

We know Zayne is a deity/divine being. But MC doesn't know that yet. She just has a subconscious, almost deja vu kind of feeling, that he seems like a "deity" (which she's not wrong, ofc)

So here she's just teasing him about the matter. But notice how Zayne doesn't immediately refute.

Imo, since he's been reading up in the Fractal Library, he would have known some of the stories there are about him. It's possible he knew he might have been MOF or GoA or any other divine personas we don't know yet. But I don't think he can actively recall yet, nor do I think these personas can bleed through him like "Dawnbreaker" (who's also not Anecdote!DB, by the way) in main story update.

Anyways, instead of refuting quickly, Zayne takes his time kissing and nibbling MC. He's unhurried, and MC compares him to a spring silkworm (春蚕/chūncán).

A very apt reference bec imo, it alludes to 2 aspects of Zayne.

1st, his lovemaking style which is the immediate context and focal point of this post, lol. In his Secret Times, even in the kindled scene before, he's always about taking things slow, saying things like "the night is still young" or "we'll be spending a lot of time here".

If you notice in his Secret Times like Silent Poem (after her "massage"), Frost Salvation, and Thawing Whispers, it's MC who comes first. But then later he'll take his time teasing her, making suggestive remarks about going at it for a while. As with surgery, Zayne doesn't rush. He'll let MC gets her release first because she's always hungry and eager like that, and he'd match her, but after that he'd be like the spring silkworm.

Silkworms feed exclusively on mulberry leaves. They methodically and patiently devour a whole leaf before moving on to the next. The imagery we're supposed to get is Zayne patiently worshipping every inch of MC's skin, but even in his patience she still feels like she's being devoured bit by bit.

2nd aspect of the silkworms is how it's a symbol of self-sacrifice and dedication, especially in love. In fact there's a famous line from a Tang dynasty poem that reads 春蚕到死丝方尽 (spring silkworms spin silk until they die). We know this represents Zayne too well. His love and devotion to MC is such that he's willing to sacrifice himself in her place, which we've seen happening across multiple lifetimes, even in the MOF myth which Silent Underflow is obviously referencing.

3. Just Zayne

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Only after Zayne kisses and nibbles his way did he reply saying he's not a deity but that there's one thing that remains the same.

But he doesn't continue, choosing to once again devour MC like a spring silkworm.

This time MC notes his breath (气息/qìxī) traveling across her body and smoothing every damp crease/fold of her skin. The imagery, with what we know earlier about kisses and nibbles, invoke the visual of Zayne trailing hot, open-mouthed kisses across every inch of MC's damp skin.

The reason why Zayne takes his time in refuting MC's claim that he's a deity will make sense with the next part but I just want to quickly address the underlying meaning of Zayne denying he's a deity and emphasizing his name.

Even as far back as his first birthday card, Eternal Attachment, he told MC that to one person, he's just Zayne.

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He's a child to his parents, a student/mentee to Dr Noah, a doctor to his colleagues and patients etc. To everyone else, he has an identity but the real him, the one simply named Zayne, is only known intimately by MC.

So even if he's a deity (which we know he is), it's important to him that MC knows he's just Zayne, *her* Zayne, the one who he likes hearing his name fall from her lips. And also in all his lifetimes with her, he's always ignored what he is and chooses her in the capacity as his true self, Zayne.

Anyways when MC is coherent enough to speak after being further worshipped by her lover, she asks what is the one thing that remains the same between a deity and Zayne.

4. Going to Wushan

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u/moonqsti on ladstwt talked about the phrase 共赴巫山 (going to Wushan) appearing in MOF where Zayne related to MC the belief whereby a priestess would dance to summon a god to the mortal realm and would consummate.

Back then, we didn't have a scene showing MOF Zayne and MC consummating after she'd dance for him (though the Secret Times Forest's Breeze suggests they were in an intimate relationship already).

In modern times, the phrase 共赴巫山 is now a poetic way of saying "making love". It actually comes from a story about a king who dreamt of an intimate meeting with a goddess at Mount Wushan, so likely Infold tweaked this legend a bit for the MOF story though in CN legends and folklore it's not uncommon to hear stories of unions between human priest/priestess and deities.

Zayne saying such a phrase after the slow lovemaking he was subjecting MC to makes sense now. He's building up the moment to where they would consummate (again). They had already bared their souls earlier, resolving one issue that had left MC vulnerable.

So now it's about onfirming to her he's only Zayne, her lover.

By the way, the EN loc really doesn't do the Wushan line justice, lol. I was like what does that even mean, hence why I decided to look up the CN words.

5. Coming apart

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MC's gaze drifting to look at the rain is telling us she's getting unfocused.

The imagery of water separating and reuniting is both poetic and meaningful. It's a beautiful visual to show how they are preparing to come apart together. But it's also a metaphor about their lifetimes. Like water, they kept being separated but they also kept finding each other over and over again, their fingers remain entwined throughout the fluid time and space.

And then MC comes apart, her orgasm rocking her as Zayne devours her moans. Also the writers insert a bit of scientific info there, lol...

Apparently, neuroscientists identified that LSt (lumbar spinothalamic) cells in the lower spinal cord act as the center for generating orgasm and causing rhythmic pelvic contractions. So it's a powerful imagery when the writers said MC's "tremor" climbs up from the tailbone/base of spine.

6. Sweet words

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Fyi, "My Love" is my nickname.

Zayne also comes apart. The meaning of the passage is that the words Zayne said are only meant for MC's ears, not even the rain and water can get to hear them.

This is a master of Meaningful Rizz™, and he's always got these great speeches about love. He's not exactly shy in professing his love. So I understood this passage to mean that in his release where he's lacking control the most, his feelings for MC must have been so embarrassingly overwhelming for him at that point that his ramblings of love are only fit for her alone to hear.

I missed out the last line in EN but in CN, MC still privately thinks of Zayne as a deity, her "deity" ("divine" in EN) and it echoes this line in GoA and also how she "prayed" to him at the end hoping they'd find the "perfect fulfillment".

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Idk if this current timeline is where MC and Zayne would find their perfect fulfillment but for the moment, in that hot springs as they got swept by currents of love and intimacy, it's enough for now, and the rain bears witness.

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Credit to MsLavenderYT for the screenshots from Eternal Attachment and GoA myth.

I hope you've enjoyed this breakdown. As I said, I'd have missed other nuances in CN but the bits and pieces here are still enough, imo, to elevate our understanding of the scene further. I just love how Zayne's lovemaking is described in such a manner, that he may take things slow but he's still essentially devouring MC completely.

Please do not ask me to breakdown other LI's post-kindled scenes because this alone took me 3 hours to write as I was constantly checking on the CN words and reading up info etc. Also, I only managed to pull for Zayne sadly.

As for the kindled scene breakdown, I know there'd been requests to do other LIs too. I'll consider doing them if I have time, as I still need to do a lore post on Silent Underflow.

Thank you for reading~

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For Zayne's Silent Underflow kindled scene breakdown: https://www.reddit.com/r/LoveAndDeepspace/comments/1t1dwh1/zaynes_silent_underflow_kindled_scene_breakdown/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Hi everyone, I made a post on the official LaDS subreddit. It's quite a huge post with pics and vids so I'm just posting the link here, hopefully it's ok.

https://www.reddit.com/r/LoveAndDeepspace/s/Nz9kz8wdfQ

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Impt Notes:
• Spoilers ahead
• Mix of vids and pics; vid cuts have blur filter
• Thoughts are my own
• Will be referencing the story

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Brief premise of the story:
• Zayne is officiating the ceremony of the Sacred Tree Blessing (which is based on the MOF myth)
• Zayne and MC have to observe celibacy for a few days prior to the ceremony
• Kindled scene takes place once ceremony is over

1. Opening Scene

https://reddit.com/link/1t1dwh1/video/3ppgykd40nyg1/player

MC offers to do a back massage for Zayne to relax. However, she soon turns cheeky, sliding her hands across his pecs and thereafter giving his tush a slap (or whatever you wanna imagine she's doing to his lower half); you can see his body jerking slightly

2. MC is hungry

https://reddit.com/link/1t1dwh1/video/hz0zgvth0nyg1/player

After Zayne asks if she's helping him to relax or satisfying herself, MC decides to drop all pretenses and kiss him. Her kisses are urgent, open-mouthed, and she keeps pulling at his lower lip, resulting in a saliva string.

Zayne realizes MC is pent-up and confirms with her that she wants more as he nips at her neck and throat.

3. Zayne takes charge

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As always, in any ZayneMC spicy scenes, the dynamics is such that once MC initiates and Zayne knows he can follow through, he will take control and take care of MC, even if it means letting her have her way. He's by no means a "sub" like some people are insinuating.

He picks MC up, and tells her they should take their time. But your girl is desperate, she's kissing him like her life depends on it, hands on the back of his head and nape, and he gets swept by her urgency that he accidentally knocks the umbrella over.

He breaks the kiss and is momentarily distracted.

4. Zayne dangles an offer

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MC knees Zayne to get his attention back as she reverses their position, telling him he hasn't been hers lately. You see understanding comes into his eyes as he slides a reassuring hand up her hips. So he offers her the opportunity to do whatever she wants to him, to make up for the fact he'd been away from her. He entices her further by leaning in, giving a sultry look, telling her to say what she wants out loud.

5. MC goes wild

https://reddit.com/link/1t1dwh1/video/9ocjrpb11nyg1/player

It's important to know that MC comes to this scene feeling like Zayne is someone "otherworldly"; some instinct inside her is telling her that he's "unreachable" to her. Earlier when Zayne was officiating the events and ceremony she saw him as a "deity" who walked amongst mortals. She said his name but he didn't hear, ofc, and didn't look her way.

So when she says wants Zayne, and only Zayne, she means she wants her lover back. Not the "stranger" that he was for the past few days in his "deity" role, the one who had to sleep separately from her.

When she says she wants only Zayne, she does so whilst touching his arm, as if confirming it's really him, before she desperately hangs on and rides him. You can tell from Zayne's expression he's initially taken aback by her urgency. But soon, he lets her ride, watching her, gaze turning sultry again, and then he's picking up the pace, asking her does she like it, looking a little smug lol.

6. MC comes

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In the next instance, she collapses against him, having reach her climax as evident by the sticky fluid on Zayne's fingers. His face shows satisfaction at her pleasure.

Imo, my personal interpretation is Zayne has not come yet, which accounts for round 2.

7. Playful MC

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Anyways MC pulls away then, blaming her behavior on the hot spring water lol. And Zayne is quick on the uptake, because MC did this before in Silent Poem too, where after she came, she teased him by saying she was sleepy, to which Zayne said the night was still young. So he calls out her bluff and leans in for a kiss, but the brat denies him the kiss and playfully teases his no-doubt sensitive nip

Then as Zayne's taken in by the sensation, she quickly tries to "run away" but is easily caught by him, ofc.

And then you see the shift. Where before he let MC have her way and was gentle, now he's in full control. He takes the kiss he was denied earlier, kissing her hungrily, and you can see MC is equally receptive, hand cradling his nape.

8. His name

https://reddit.com/link/1t1dwh1/video/zo4kqfo42nyg1/player

When Zayne breaks the kiss, she whispers his name. And then he says the most affirming thing MC could ever want to hear at that moment. He tells her he likes it whenever she says his name.

Remember I said she came to this scene feeling vulnerable, because she'd said his name days before where he didn't turn to look at her. This is a full circle moment. Her Zayne, her lover, wants to hear her say his name.

In fact, as Zayne slips inside her and resumes their lovemaking, he tells her he wants to hear her say his name "1000 times, 10,000 times even".

And you see MC's holding on to Zayne's wrist, overwhelmed by emotions and sensations, but he's quick to open his palm to her for their fingers to intertwine, almost as if to seal a promise of their love.

9. Full circle

https://reddit.com/link/1t1dwh1/video/swrsgwss1nyg1/player

The EN VA is too good! Gosh I'm so in love with his breathwork as Zayne approaches his climax.

And look how beautifully the kindled scene ends, another full circle moment with Zayne asking to hear MC's voice that he didn't realize he'd missed out during the event, them being together in a fervent moment of intimacy where before they were apart, with the floating umbrella that symbolizes MOF Zayne's love and protection surviving the passage of time.

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Anyways hope if you have make it this far, you'll have a new appreciation of the kindled scene from my perspective. I was appalled to see some people saying Zayne's scene was rushed or wasn't spicy... Clearly there's failure to appreciate nuances bec the emotive beats in this scene are what heighten their intimacy, imo.