u/liquidstress — reddlx

Can barely walk anymore

Wondering how quality of life is for people with MRI similar to mine. I’m 25. My legs are weak and wobbly and I’m in constant pain. Injections and medication did not work. Hospital gave me several doses of morphine, gabapentin, dexamethasone, and ibuprofen that did not work. Hurts to sit, stand, and lay. Having saddle anesthesia when sitting and leaking urine. Lost ability to orgasm. Anyone find something that can help? Thinking of getting a rollator.

u/liquidstress — 3 days ago

▲ 3 r/scleroderma+1 crossposts

I have had health issues my entire life. In the past 6 months, I have been in what I thought was a gastroparesis flare. This has recently been, again, confirmed by gastric emptying with 30% food left after 4 hrs. Recently, I have been having full body itchiness, extreme itchiness/redness in hands and feet primarily at night but worsens with activity. I also developed raynauds syndrome but I have only ever had white/translucent skin on toes. I have lost 30 lbs in 4 weeks. My scalp is extremely itchy, no scaliness or dandruff. It’s especially itchy after showering, no difference between temperatures. I am having this redness on my face across my cheeks and nose and around my lips. I suddenly developed rapid hirsutism, I’ve never had this before. I recently got SI joint injections and they didn’t work, even though they have in the past. I have also noticed my nose got slimmer and on one side, throughout the past year, it has seemed tighter like I can feel more cartilage and there is a broken capillary right where it’s tighter. I have trouble swallowing. My skin gets very patchy with redness, especially with exercise. I get the most redness on face, chest, hands, and feet. My feet and hands get very veiny as well. They don’t even look like my body anymore. They are always so discolored, my cuticles are yellowish, etc. Would like to note that my eating habits are next to nothing these past 2 months due to the gastroparesis, so maybe it has to do with vitamin deficiencies. Normal endoscopy. Normal chest x-ray. Normal pelvic xray. So far my lab work is pretty normal. No significant findings except for gastroparesis. I am seeing a rheumatologist in 2 weeks to have ANA panels. I also have had these little red dots on my hands, feet, arms that have been more prominent in the past few months. I always have full body pain primarily in neck, shoulders, spine, and hips. Mostly on the left side. Diagnosed hEDS, POTS, GERD, gastroparesis, raynauds, interstitial cystitis, and endometriosis via laparoscopic surgery. I would appreciate any input. Thanks!

EDIT: Please be kind. I’m asking for advice. I’m not saying I have this. As noted, I am sure I am vitamin deficient at this point, which probably is contributing to symptoms. This is something mentioned by another doctor, along with lupus, who prompted me to see a rheumatologist. My health has been distressing this past year and I am just having anxiety.

u/liquidstress — 6 days ago

▲ 60 r/TrueOffMyChest

I have decided that I am done. I have had mental health issues due to trauma my entire life. I have been to plenty of facilities and therapists and tried so many meds my doctor thinks I am med resistant and need to try alternate therapies. My mental health has taken a huge hit this past year. So much happened, I honestly don’t even know how I made it to this point. To top that, I am severely anorexic (again). I have decided I am too far gone. No one can “fix” me, no one can help me, and I don’t want to help myself. Trust me, I have tried and tried. I’m done. I’m not sure when, but I will be ending my life soon. I feel really good about it. It’s definitely time. I have always thought that mental illness caused that “I will never get better” mentality but, I’m not sure if that’s the case here. My mental health probably could get better. I just don’t care anymore. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. God speed.

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u/liquidstress — 11 days ago

▲ 0 r/ExNoContact

I have an ex who kind of just triggered me more than anything in my life. I’m not going to get into it, but I’ve had a really rough year. I went into a psychosis which has never happened before because of severe, prolonged stress. Anyway, I was very unstable and kept breaking up with him and he eventually left saying he loved me but he needed to protect himself. This was in September 2025. I acted crazy. I would make fake numbers, stalk his socials and who he followed whenever I was unblocked, text him a good amount but not daily and maybe like 10 texts max, but that’s simply bc i’m the type of person who sends multiple texts and not one big one (annoying, i know). Sometimes it would be weeks in between. I guess I got confused bc he would answer sometimes. Sometimes he loved me again. Sometimes he would even hang out with me. But then sometimes he hated me again. I don’t know what’s become of me. We started things up again about 2 weeks ago. Last week, I told him I don’t think I can do this because I can’t forgive him for all of the shit he’s done. It was completely wrong of me to open this up and then leave again. I’m a horrible person for this, truly, I do not know what’s wrong with me. Anyway, he was begging me to love him, for us to work, for me not to leave. BEGGING. Begging begging begging. I stay. He leaves me this week. I am hurt, confused, disgusted. Day 3 no contact, I check his IG. idk why. I just did. I look at his followers. I see this half naked girl he follows. No hate, she can do her thing but then I feel insecure. I never had sex with him. Maybe I wasn’t provocative enough, maybe I wasn’t attractive enough. Who knows. I unblock him. I text him. I tell him I hate him. I tell him I hate the girl he followed. I act like a child. I felt sick to my stomach. Then he says I am scaring him and that I am borderline stalking him and he will contact the police if I text him again. Can I please stress that I know I should’ve not done that. I know I shouldn’t make fake numbers. I know that I should leave him the fuck alone. Idk what’s wrong with me. I’ve never acted like this with anyone. I think I have placed my self worth in his hands and what hurts the most isn’t even losing him it’s how fucking worthless I feel. Anyway, I have never had anyone say I scared them or I was stalking or harassing them. Never. I didn’t even realize I was coming across like that. In my head, he was begging me to be with him and love him LAST week. I didn’t expect this. I will never contact him again, obviously. The shame, guilt, and disgust i feel with myself is killing me right now. I don’t feel like I can survive this. Someone please tell me I can get through this. I feel so horrible I made him feel that way. I didn’t mean to.

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u/liquidstress — 12 days ago